What do you do when you’ve been through the same song and dance for almost two years?
“Stop lying to me.”
“I swear I’m not lying…”
angry silence
the truth comes out
you cry
you scream
you wonder why the hell you don’t leave this time.
How do you learn to trust someone who is untrustworthy? How do you keep from losing water cupped in your hand? Is the act even worth it? Each time, each cycle, each loop looks less and less worth it. Why am I just trying to keep this water from spilling out of my hand? Why am I fighting for something that doesn’t want to be fought for?
I should open my hands and let the water pour down. Splashing and soaking the floor. Rolling and writhing, and ebbing away.
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The Boss Lady
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It sounds like your questions are leading you to the answers you need. Executing on your decisions or acting on what you know to be right is the hard part. The impossible part. But you’ll find your way.
Thanks so much Angie!
I held a cup of water in my hands too. It nearly all trickled out. But then our tears started to fill it back up. Hurts have healed. Health has been restored.
I don’t know what the right answer is for you- but you will. Eventually.
Love and prayers.
J
That is beautiful. I am hoping for that kind of story. Only God knows.
I appreciate your struggle and the responses that have been posted so far. For me, time is the test. Don’t move too quickly….
I think we fight for what we love but sometimes the hurt of the fight is too much to bear.
What a perfect, beautiful, tragic metaphor, Jasmine. You are such a talented writer. I am sorry for your pain, and hope against all hope that things will get better for you.
Thinking of you, sending love and prayers!
Thanks Sara! I appreciate your prayers and support!